Precious Illusions

[ScaryDan]

Precious Illusions
~alanis morissette~

you'll rescue me right? in the exact same way they never did..
I'll be happy right? when your healing powers kick in

you'll complete me right? then my life can finally begin
I'll be worthy right? only when you realize the gem I am?

but this won't work now the way it once did
and I won't keep it up even though I would love to
once I know who I'm not then  I'll know who I am
but I know I won't keep on playing the victim

these precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was defenseless
and parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends

this ring will me yet as will you knight in shining armor
this pill will help me yet as will these boys gone through like water

but this won't work as well as the way it once did
cuz I want to decide between survival and bliss
and though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am
but I know I won't keep on playing the victim

these precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was a kid
and parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend

I've spent so long firmly looking outside me
I've spent so much time living in survival mode

[lildansbitch]

So I ran faster
But it caught me here
Yes my loyalties turned
Like my eyeball
You see I have strabismus*
I love throwing around random ophthalmic terms

These precious illusions
Let me see
Let my eye turn away
These precious illusions
I wish my eyes were straight
I'm sick of them being gay


[*strabismus = cross-eye, or lazy eye, basically, for those who care to know]